Audit & Ask: September

Welcome to the -ber months!

I did reiki healing this morning and paid extra for the sound bowl healing. With my eyes closed on a heated bed, I saw a book I could write and the plot line caught me by surprise. I cried 2 large tears only out of my right eye and one of those tears trekked slowly down my cheek directly into my right ear causing a raucous during the sound bowls.

I remembered my best friend in 7th and 8th grade sleeping over every Tuesday and my mom making tacos before taco Tuesday was even a thing. I don’t remember what we ever talked about on the way to school the next morning. And I remembered how my Grandmother would alway say ‘come here, let me show you something’ and how my youngest daughter says the exact same thing, the exact same way. I realized I have gotten tripped into and trapped into asking ‘what’s wrong?’ and not asking enough ‘and yet, what is right?’ … with it all. But especially with myself and deeper, myself as mother. And then I got curious if how much we love ourselves is directly impacted to money? And how instead of leading by example, I really could LIVE by example. Less proving, more being.

And when I was leaving, the intuitive healer said to me I wrapped you in a really big energetic shield and a sound shield. You had way too many people plugged in. I asked her what energetic material she used for the shield but she just kind of laughed. I was hoping she would say something like coconut shell or turtle shell. Barefoot and taking a sip of water she handed me, I thanked her and went next door to write you this at a french bakery that is always closed when I try to go … but not today.

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Every month I check in - in my body, in my to do lists, my habits, my goals.

Here is my Audit & Ask for August to September.

AUDIT
Take a moment to close your eyes and see all that was September. Meetings, moments, people, health, work, commitments, failures, celebrations and all the learnings.

In one word, how was August? ___________________________

August was so supportive.

What are two learnings you experienced from August?

1. I learned in moments or weeks of uncertainty, I can create portals of certainty through my own routines. Like when I fly from Maine to Florida and still wake up every morning to get sunlight on my face first and have protein before caffeine. And that feels like agency and empowerment and growth.

2. I also learned that having family around is soothing to my nervous system. And I am thinking a lot about that right now.

What are two celebrations you can share from August?

1. This might sound TMI but I know in my bones that I was fighting a parasite in my body and in August, I felt it leave. Celebrating the departure and the work I have been doing to support my body to get here.

2. Celebrating so many beautiful memories made in Florida - my Mom and Dad retired down in the Gulf. We spent over two weeks there and I was really intentional and observing my kiddos connect with my parents and feel so wrapped in love that isn’t my own love. Core memories were made. And we are all glowing from yes the sun and the sand made of quartz crystals.

3. BONUS: One more, I am absolutely celebrating the launch of THE12: MOTHERMIND. There are 22 of us in there from Canada to the UK to California and Minnesota and Connecticut and it feels divine and right on time. I cannot wait to see where we get to go together.

In closing, August was a beautiful bookend to our Summer season. I really did so much that I wrote down in the last Audit & Ask which included writing, reading books, sno-cones, launches and planning a girl’s night with my friends on the sand.

ASK
In one word, give September a container? ___________________

STRUCTURE.

What do you want in September? Make a list. Write a snapshot.

I want to slowly and intentionally place all my shorts and floral rompers in the storage containers I have hidden under our bed. With every layer of summer clothes that line the bin, I want to see in my memory banks when I wore that outfit and what was I doing and how did I feel. Then I will line the second bin with sandals and reckon with the loss of the warm air that kissed my bare toes all summer long. I want to savor the transition with zero rush into Fall as I embrace my favorite wool sweater, thicker socks and oversized cardigan I wear on the mornings of Autumn. I will have to find space for the boots as they always take up more room and where is my puff jacket actually? I want to savor the last days of summer so I actually move into Fall with savor as the theme.

How do you want to feel in September?

I want to feel purposeful. I want deep breaths as my norm. I want to feel the first bite of an apple straight off the tree. I want to feel romantic and in love. I want to feel fresh and cozy. I want to flow in Fall. I know we often talk about glow and summer sun, but I want to glow in the Fall, too …. And poetry. I crave poems and poetry and waxing poetic about all the realms.

What is one goal (or more) that you can commit to in support of your desires and feelings for September? Start with one goal, see how it goes.

1. I commit to completing the 4 week Bodyweight Foundations classes I am taking as I continue to support and strengthen my body by end of month.

2. I experience three (3) ways to invest in my self care - can be massage, energy healing, art class, therapy, therapeutic writing….

3. I launch my Core Values e-book with deep care and love for storytelling and experiential learning.

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Your turn.