Audit & Ask: JULY

Every month, checking in so I don't check out.

I made space for a social life and friends this past month. One of my June goals was to take a walk with a friend each week. And I started super strong with walks each week! And the last two weeks were more meet ups and talk and chill on a beach blanket and I am counting it.

I will die on this hill: WE NEED COMMUNITY IN REAL LIFE.

And I like to think my hill is really grassy, there might be flowers and weeds up there, you could even roll down the hill on a day full of whimsy. Most likely there is a large tree you could sit under for shade. Even space for blankets in said shade, too. Probably an old oak, oak trees provide so much shade. It’s a big hill.

Listen, you and I have read all the benefits of online friends. I have online friends, too. One of my girlfriends who I love dearly, we talk in memes almost every single day. And that is it. Memes.

I will be crystal clear on this though, the memes are not enough for me. I need eye contact. I need one friend who walks way faster than me and I have to pump my arms to keep up. I need revelations that we did not know both of us were navigating the same thing with our bodies and barely being able to keep up in conversation because we feel so seen in the “holy shit, me, too”. I need awkward pauses even. I need over-sharing. I need small town drama. And I need touch and crying and laughing.

IN REAL LIFE.

IN REAL TIME.

Meet me at the hill. Or the beach. Whichever.

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Every month I check in - in my body, in my to do lists, my habits, my goals.

Here is my Audit & Ask for June into July

AUDIT
Take a moment to close your eyes and see all that was June. Meetings, moments, people, health, work, commitments, failures, celebrations and all the learnings.

In one word, how was June? ___________________________

Healing.

What are two learnings you experienced from June?

1. I learned that I will never ever stop getting to know my body. This vessel that carries me through life, works (hard) to keep me balanced with a central nervous system that is always in communication. I learned to keep checking in and ask: am I listening? Am I really listening?

2. I learned that some times I am too far into the future and thus, missing what is unfolding right in front of me. Having big conversations with my partner about how to stay present and tools to support this like journaling, meditation, beach walks, moving my body, drinking water, getting enough sleep…to name only a few.

What are two celebrations you can share from June?

1. I am celebrating really seeing all my children as different and unique.

2. Speaking of differences, I am celebrating how our life in Maine has been totally cataclysmic in so many ways. Where my husband has really found his way and hit a stride (which I am loving for him), I have been in the midst of somewhat of a breaking down of sorts. And I know that has to happen for the next part to emerge and folks, she is making her way. How incredible to celebrate both ways of being alive and in it.

In closing, June was very introspective and active. Onward.

ASK
In one word, give July a container? ___________________

EMERGE.

What do you want in July? Make a list. Write a snapshot.

I want to feel Summer in our calendar, in my bones, and in my being. I want to be soaked in sunshine and replenished with an afternoon rainstorm. I want to immerse myself in saltwater, lake water, bath water, pool water. I want sun kissed skin and sweat under the brim of my hat. I want to sleep in our camper. I want to have to wash my children’s feet before bed. I want to savor and sip all the waters I make (lemon, ginger, thyme and aloe waters…). I want to read books at night and know it is okay to be humidity-sticky in the morning. I want the sun roof open. I want to be at the beach. I want to become Summer.

How do you want to feel in July?

So present people get weird around me because I hold eye contact one second longer.

What is one goal (or more) that you can commit to in support of your desires and feelings for July? Start with one goal, see how it goes.

1. I outline and launch a new offering inviting THE12 container back to my services. A space for Moms to connect, feel, support the self and others and receive and be. I am going to keep it simple yet potent.

2. We take the camper out on an adventure in Maine.

3. I read at the beach 3x per week, even if for 10 minutes. It matters and my Nervous System is always listening.